be somebody.

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 08:49:04 GMT

Centre of equal daughters, equal sons,
All, all alike endear'd, grown, ungrown, young or old,
Strong, ample, fair, enduring, capable, rich,
Perennial with the Earth, with Freedom, Law and Love,
A grand, sane, towering, seated Mother,
Chair'd in the adamant of Time.

Teeth

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 22:44:44 GMT

I felt a black man in my teeth, what a way
Jesus is coming, he acts my age, and he always looks the same
I said a good seed was on your break wasn't a mistake anyway
Well Jesus is coming better act our age
And clean everything
And make a seem

Like you never really needed it anyway,
Yep you never really needed it anyways, okay, okay

John spoke a theory straight in to my brain
God damn did you mean to do that to me
Well Jesus don't come round
Unless we pray each day for 500 days

I don't know what you want anymore
No, I don't know what you want anymore
So we can see

That you never really needed it anyway
No you never really needed it anyway
So we can see

That the bottom going to bury us anyway
So I am doing what I gotta to stay awake
Yeah I am doing what I gotta to stay awake, okay

What happens when I don't know what happens
What happens when I don't know what happens

Just stop and go and stop and go till you can't go run anymore
Just stop and go and stop and go till you can't go

Make it seem
Like we never really needed it anyway
Yeah we never really needed it anyway

So we can see
That the bottom gonna bury us anyway
Yeah your doing you gotta to stay awake
Yeah I am doing what I gotta to stay awake

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 18:56:25 GMT

Regina Spektor. Need I say more?

Here's to

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 20:23:40 GMT

..having the swine flu and stomach virus with diarrhea, 2 1/2 hours later, $75 later. Here's to the crazy black lady afraid of a stroke, worried about child support, and the group hug we had with her. Here's to wearing a face mask, peeing in a cup, and matching medical bracelets. Here's to the McDreamy gray haired male nurse who gave rachel an extra day off school. God bless America.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 22:22:45 GMT

Hello. I'm alive. I think.

B is for believing you'd always be here for me..

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 01:56:30 GMT

I never finish phrases I misspell
An open arm's a prison cell
When I said, "I hate what I've become"
I lied, I hated who I was
So when you start to wonder
about the pain in my throat,
Then don't you ever, no never ever
Speak for someone
You
don't
know

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 23:58:25 GMT

Call me selfish, but I don't think you deserve to have anything to do with me.

Speak slow

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 04:17:02 GMT

Checking in.

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 16:07:20 GMT

I've felt more inspiration from the smallest of things, thoughts, and ideas than the ones that I used to find it in. I need to write more. I am living in Tallahassee again, and this new beginning excites the core of me.

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 00:22:37 GMT

Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 00:48:56 GMT

You used to shine so bright, but I watched all of it fade.

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 22:29:37 GMT

I got a faulty parachute
I got a stranger's friend
An exciting change in
My butchers blend
A symbol on the ceiling
With the flick of a switch
My new found hero
In the enemy's ditching

Well somebody's something was left in the room
And man, now that its gone well of course we assume
That somebody else needed something so bad
That they took everything that somebody had

Losing hope is easy
When your only friend is gone
And every time you look around
Well, it all, it all just seems to change

The mark was left
Man it's never the same
Next time that you shoot
Make sure that you aim
Open windows with passing cars
A brand new night
With the same old stars

Losing hope is easy
When your only friend is gone
And every time you look around
Well, it all, it all just seems to change

Feed the fool
A piece of the pie
Make a fool of his system
Make a fool of his mind
Give him bottles of lies
And maybe he'll find
His place in heaven
Cause he might just die

Losing hope is easy
When your only friend is gone
And every time you look around
Well, it all, it all just seems to change
But hanging on is easy
When you've got a friend to call
When nothings making sense at all
You're not the only one that's afraid of change

Sun, 24 May 2009 23:14:30 GMT

Hi. Here's a tip: cut a little deeper next time.

Tue, 05 May 2009 01:36:49 GMT

..and times they are a changin'.

ugh.

"I like cold beverages."

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 17:24:44 GMT

I love rainy days, but I love my life even more.
So glad this job has opened new and exciting doors, and has brought some of the best people into my life. Change is not always bad.

Saw G.Love and Special Sauce in concert, front row.
Damn they're phenomenal.
Almost caught his harp he threw out, but I didn't and I was fucking pissed.
The dudebro that caught it was a fag and doesn't deserve or appreciate it.
I've been getting pretty good at the harp.. I need some mentoring though, some good blues instruction. He was definitely inspiration, as I went home and played for an hour or so.
I had fun shaking my ass though regardless.

Moobies.

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 04:54:14 GMT

Gotta love my netflix.

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 02:11:55 GMT

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 19:18:33 GMT

I would totally turn lesbian if Cat Power were interested in me.

Damn, I love that girl.

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 18:26:04 GMT

I find it odd that people can give up on others so easily--how do you just throw it away like that? I understand people go their own ways in life, but that's never stopped others from maintaining friendships and keeping in touch. I need to learn to accept things for the way they are and not what I wish they'd be. Maybe if I wasn't so focused and hung up on that it'd be a lot easier for me to let go too. Not just of those long lost friendships but with the way things are going in my life. I'm not happy here. I feel so stuck. I've tasted that freedom and I want it back. I'm so much better than this town, and I get caught up with hating being here and hating to have to explain myself to all the people I run into that I need to focus on the problem at hand, and go about working to change it. I'm seeing a hypnotist in Orlando within the next week. Maybe he can help me find the happiness that's hidden beneath my frustrations. Maybe he can help me open my eyes to the good, and close the blinds on the bad.
Starting now I'm cutting out all the unnecessary bullshit in my life and working on being a healthier, more positive, happier, better me. I'm so caught up in pleasing others that I forget about myself from time to time. I need people in my life that care and bring something to the table. Isn't that what any kind of relationship entails?

Oh the irony.

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 02:18:12 GMT

It's funny when you
Find the words to say
You find no reply

I want to feel through you tonight
But I won't make you, I won't make you
Scream my name, just one more time
But I won't make you, I won't make you

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 20:03:10 GMT

I could go for a big huge glass of Sangria right now.

I think it would motivate me to clean my room........

Bahahaha, not.

Miss you Jordie.

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 20:41:33 GMT

I'm taking a pottery class which is really fun.
Six months tomorrow.
Just a lot of fishing, knitting, and reading.

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 19:37:05 GMT

Sometimes I just get so bummed.

I'm living a perfect life and yet I still get so sad.

I need to shave my armpits haha

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 02:28:02 GMT

Going to Delaware with Austin for the rest of the summer pretty much..
Driving there this time.
Stopping in Virginia, Boston, Baltimore, DC for the fourth of july perhaps, as well as a NY trip with my family if they decide to fly up and visit.
Going to definitely catch a Yankees game before they tear down the stadium after this year. I will piss/shit my pants seeing the Yankees play at home in NY. You have no idea.

This thirteen hour drive should be fun.

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 01:06:34 GMT

My three month curse has been lifted.